Life has never been better these past days.

Firstly, I have fulfilled my long time dream. It's a two-year contract, thankyouverymuch.

Secondly, I failed no course. Yipee, I passed Eco!

Thirdly, I have fully adjusted on college. I am motivated to study now, pleasured actually--I found that sort of illumination. Haha.

Fourthly, I have my digital camera and gameboy advance SP here in my hands.  

Fifthly, I am like involved with someone, though uncannily, right now. And that's a good thing, I guess.

Somebody told me that love doesn't neccessarily need all our five senses for it to be true. No need for the sense of seeing, hearing, smelling, nor tasting. Just the sense of feeling. Whoever invented feelings must be crazy. Because what i'm feeling now is driving me more insane than i have ever been my entire life.

What do you think of a guy who...

1. Sings so good it gives you goosebumps
2. Dances his blues away
3. Plays guitar, drums, flute, keyboard, and violin
4. Loves literature
5. Is a writer
6. Loves chocolates
7. Is crazy romantic
8. Loves photography
9. Loves the beach, sunsets, and all the beautiful things in the world
10. Loves life a lot
11. Knows how to speak french and german
12. Loves dogs
13. Loves kids
14. Is super sweet
15. Is very expressive of his feelings, no pretentions
16. Is caring/protective/super loving/and is proud of you
17. Loves his family
18. Loves parties

...well, well, that's all I could think about at this moment. Maybe I could add more some other time. What a feeling! Tomorrow I'm gonna go to ek with my buddies, finally natuloy rin! I'm gonna go home wednesday night since I have to attend a meeting in the afternoon. I'm working starting Thursday! But not for long though, it'll last for just a week maybe. 1050PHP per day isn't bad. 'Til here! I'm gonna update this blog more often. Bye!

Oh btw, I think that the guy is amazing. Really amazing.

She's the man

Caught this movie with Kaypee. What can I say about it? Well first of all, Amanda Bynes is unbelievable. Acting like a man is hard. Switching from acting like a man to acting like a woman is harder. Excelente!

Second of all, it's a good story. The writer might have been a feminist. It's about showing everybody that it doesn't take only a man to win a soccer game or anything else. Inside every woman, there's a man. And not just a man, A MAN! Like, she's the man!

Fave lines:
1) Ex Boyfriend: I never said that, end of conversation.
Viola: Fine, end of relationship.
2) Monique [and that's really the name] : Girls with ass like mine don't talk to guys with faces like yours. 

..But check this poem out anyway:
For Every Woman...
by Nancy R. Smith

For every woman who is tired of acting weak when she knows she is strong;
There is a man who is tired of appearing strong when he feels vulnerable.
For every woman who is tired of acting dumb;
There is a man who is burdened with the responsibility of 'knowing everything'.
For every women who is tired of being called an 'emotional female';
There is a man who is denied the right to weep and be gentle.
For every woman who is called unfeminine when she competes;
There is a man for whom competition is the only way to prove he is masculine.
For every woman who is tired of being a sex object;
There is a man who must worry about his potency.
For every woman who feels 'tied down' by her children;
There is a man who is denied the full pleasure of parenthood.
For every woman who is denied meaningful employment and equal pay;
There is a man who must bear the financial responsibility for another human being.
For every woman who was not taught the intricacies of an automobile;
There is a man who was not taught the satisfaction of cooking.
For every woman who takes a step towards her own liberation;
There is a man who finds that the way to freedom has been made a little easier.

OLA, SUMMER 2006!

1. Learn how to drive
2. Touch my guitar, finally! (6 years after my parents bought it for me)
3. Hit the beach
4. Have enough guts to try Space Shuttle
5. Finish reading Sophie's World
6. Party!
7. Work and earn mi own ackers!

"I DON'T KNOW WHY GOD HAD TO LET US MEET, WHEN THERE'S NO WAY FOR US TO BE TOGETHER..."

How am I? Well...

LSS: We Belong Together by Mariah Carey

[Verse 1]
I didn't mean it when I said
I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should have let you go
I didn't know nothing,
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn't have fathomed
I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I'd be sitting
Here beside myself
Guess I didn't know you
Guess I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

[Pre-Chorus 1]
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here cause baby

[Chorus 1]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together

[Verse 2]
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me "If You Think You're Lonely Now"
Wait a minute this is too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial tryin' to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I Only Think Of You" and it's breakin' my heart
I'm tryin' to keep it together but I'm falling apart

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I'm feeling all out of my element
Throwing things, crying tryin'
To figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life baby

[Chorus 2]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together

Quote of the day:
"Bad things never looked so good." -Bandidas

               Amidst girls' gushes, some sounds of disapproval, expressions of uncomfortableness, and few signs of arousals, the film 'Brokeback Mountain' has established its originality, as well as its straightforwardness in terms of epitomizing the nature of the society.

            Common thing people are likely to hear about it, is that it's that new movie about gay cowboys. Of course, screen hunks making out is a huge controversy that arouses people's curiosity. But as soon as you have watched beyond what your eyes tell you, that's the time you'll understand that this movie is not just about two guys having sex, rather, two people who just couldn't do what they want to do.

            Based on a short story by Annie Proulx, "Brokeback Mountain" is a story of two men who fall in love and spend the next several decades trying to be together — as much as possible, in a culture where they are considered a natural match.

            Ennis Del Mar and Jack Twist meets in the summer of 1963 while lining up for a job of looking after flocks of sheep over Randy Quaid's farm in the Brokeback Mountain. Their little friendship develops over typical edge. Ennis is the stoic one, and Jack is the mischievous one. As time passes by, in the burst of passion, the two reveal what has been simmering since the day they met.

            The day after the affair, they tried to pretend as if nothing happened. They both claimed they are not queer. Maybe not, but they're certainly in love with each other and the rest of their Brokeback summer is spent horsing around like young lovers and having sex like crazy.

            When the flocks of sheep have been sold, the two goes back to their everyday worlds. They separated and attempted to settle down and live normal lives, meeting once in a while in the mountain that brought them together. But things will never be the same again for either two.

            In their own separate worlds, as far as most of America is concerned, they did the right thing — got married to women and have kids. But Ennis' wife, Alma, and Jack's wife, Lureen suffers in their own ways through quietly disastrous marriages. Meanwhile, Ennis portrays a complex, engrossing character, presenting himself as a more straight male stereotype than Jack, so the tension between his persona and his sexuality is all the more demanding.

            "Brokeback Mountain" is a love story, but that's not all it is. In some ways, the movie is as much about the way we were as the way they are. Jack and Ennis live in fear of discovery in the world that considers them in the same league as pedophiles. Surrounded by hatred, disapproval and racism, they're condemned to lead inauthentic lives, full of curdled desire and clamped-down emotions.

            The film divides into two parts. The first is a nearly life-fulfilling encounter tale. The second follows the characters through decades of infidelity and compromise. Though consecutively dissimilar, these pieces fit together nicely through the writers' choices, highlighting moments that show the growth not only of the love affair, but also of the characters themselves.

            The love story depicted in Brokeback Mountain is as traditional as in Underworld I, Romeo & Juliet, or Unfaithful, but instead of war, family rivalry, or the general viciousness of one of the characters getting in the way, societal prejudice is the culprit. This is not to say that the film explicitly attempts to make some sort of statement about gay rights or social injustice. If anything, the film's unswerving focus on the relationship, treating it with the same narrative respect reserved for Monica and Chandler or Harry and Sally, is a statement in and of itself.

            In our society, homosexuals are not actually accepted. Though they may not be jailed like criminals, they feel like they are being deprived of the freedom that is supposedly for everybody. Generally, homosexuals are underestimated, discriminated, and treated in the sense that they are not welcome in the society. This may be because of their resistibility of conformity, which made them peculiar and different from everybody else.

***This is my film review for Sociology 101***

"Life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you're gonna get..."

That's the controversial catchy phrase from the movie Forrest Gump. Who is he? I have no idea. But after almost three hours of watching his life, I gotta say this: You gotta watch out for this man.

Having an IQ lower than normal, and not to mention useless legs, Forrest lives with his single mother in the town of Alabama. He had been experiencing lack of friends and extreme bullying, and academic institutions had been suggesting that he apply to a special school instead, but his sympathetic mother disapproves.

On the first day of school, another day of bitter rejection for Forrest, he meets a girl named Jenny. An angel, as he described her, had been with him all the time. During the day, they climb trees, and play under the sun. At night, they stare up into the sky and watch the stars. Throughout all the bullying, the thunderstorms, and the beating up, they were together. Even in the time when Forrest was already able to use his legs, Jenny was there.

Time came and change is proven to be the only thing that remains constant. This is the time when the two people started living two different lives. Jenny lived a life in search for the limelight; while Forrest had lived and lived just the way life has to be lived.

Forrest had achieved things many wishes for: he had received his college degree as a scholar just by playing football, he had been given honor in the military, he had become popular in the field of Ping Pong, and he became a millionaire through a “shrimping” business.

One peculiar thing that he did which made him famous all over America is his “run all over the cities of America”. A lot of people thought it was controversial but when they ask Forrest what the reason behind this is, he would say casually that he just felt like running. This act had made him ease this loneliness he’s feeling because this is the time when he felt ultra-alone---his mother’s dead, Jenny’s someplace else, and there’s nobody else around.

The movie ends with Forrest and his son named after him, living a life like a box of chocolates, bitter once when Jenny died, but sweet eventually when they’ve smelled the aroma of what’s beneath that bitterness.

Today is a declared holiday! Yipee , finally. I've been looking forward for "a day away" because I've got so much things to do. But first things first, kwento muna!

I was at the debut party of my friend, Kaypee, last Saturday night at One Burgundy Plaza. I was undoubtedly damn happy for her because that night was a fulfillment of some of her dreams. Firstly, she's got everything over--the hassle of organizing the program, the reservations, invitations, and all of those pressuring works that had to be done--yes, she's over it, finally. Next, the guitar of her dreams--I imagine it standing beside her bed. Thanks to her rich classmates who bought it for her. And drum roll please, the boy of her dreams is back in her life. Marvelous. We went talking/clubbing somewhere after the debut and stayed there 'til 5:30AM, went home by daylight.

Eastwood city

With the debutante

Sharing a soulful conversation over coffee

With Jemark

I had a lot of fun. I'm sure Kaypee and the others did too.

'Til here. Sigh, [I feel so lonely ] CIAO.